School's starting next Monday and I swear my body clock is screwed. I'm sleeping at 6am almost everyday and I'm only left with 6 more... Make that 5 more days to screw it back to normal. I. Am. Doomed. Doom dada di di da. HEEEEE :B
You know what? I had this thought lately. And it's kind of bothering me a little. And it's just scary to think about it. Okay, here it goes. You meet someone. Someone who you can click to right away (a person of opposite gender of course). And then, you two got close. Same old, same old. Friends to close friends to best friends. You tell him everything. From how your day went, your feelings, jokes. Literally just anything and everything. And then this feeling started. You started to fall for him. But you didn't dare to tell. Cause why? He talks to you about other girls. He'll be like "There's this girl from... And she's... I would love to get to know her..." The way he describes her with every single detail. And you know it's not you. (Like duh cause he told you the course that girl is in is different from yours). Back to topic, you just had so smile and entertain him going crazy over that girl. But the truth is, you're hurting inside and all you can do is smile and nod, smile and nod. And eventually, he got close to that girl. He made the first move and apparently, that girl accepted his "first move". He storytells to you about what happened. What he said and what she replied. The things that you thought he was going to say to you but didn't. Cause you're not that girl. You see how they act around each other. Teasing and being all lovey dovey in front of you. And time past. The both of them were still together till you were in your adulthood. As time past, you watched your best friend fall in love with someone else. You stood in the corner, wondering what you're lacking of. And then one day, your best friend told you that he was getting engaged to that girl. You were shocked and your world suddenly came caving in. All you could say was "Congratulations. I'm so happy for you." And I don't know maybe give him a fistbump or whatever. Months passed and he got married to the love of his life. But you still have yet to get over him. You know how hard it is to move on right? Yeah, you feel that kind of feeling every single day and it's killing you inside. The guy you loved now belongs to someone else. No more jokes. No more contact. No more telling him everything. He has his own wife and maybe even kids.
Now, the reason why I'm saying this is because... What if this actually happens to me in the future?
What if I'm not good enough to get someone's attention?
