I'm still human.

It's funny how I'm always the one reassuring people that they're needed. Reminding them how wonderful of a person they are. Pulling them back up when they're down. Being there for people when they need someone. Motivating them to do the best they can.

But why is it hard for them to do the same for me. 

I'm still human. Yes, I may act independent but I'm still an ordinary 19 year old human. I have feelings and thoughts. I still need someone to be there for me. To remind me if I'm a wonderful person. To tell me how lucky they are to have me. To give me words of motivation when I'm down. 

It's hard when both parties are feeling down but I'm the one who has to give in and cheer them up instead. And nobody cheers me up. And then everything repeats. I bottle up my feelings and I'll start to look down on myself and question whether my feelings even exist in anyone's eyes. If anyone even cares. If anyone even bothers. 

It sucks when you always act like the strong one but you're not.