WHY IS IT ME?

It's funny how in one day I could update a happy post and a sad post. Well, I actually thought of just updating this instead earlier on but I told myself I was too negative to think in such manner. So, I decided to write about my skincare routine to keep my mind occupied and distract myself. Time now is 3.45am (SGT) and I'm still upset. The distraction didn't work. So here goes my rant. 

Have you ever wanted to cry for no reason? Well, you have a reason but you think it's too pathetic for it to be a reason to shed tears. I feel like that every time and it's making me weak as days past. I can''t find the strong girl whom I used to be. Where did she go? 

I've always wanted someone to hear me out. OKAY, NOW THIS IS IT. THE THING I'VE BEEN KEEPING IN ALL THESE WHILE. WHO CARES WHAT ANYONE SAYS. I'M JUST GNA SAY IT.

WHY IS IT THAT MY FRIENDS CAN BE THERE FOR SOMEONE BUT NOT ME. 

WHY IS IT WHEN I'M UPSET, NO ONE BOTHERS TO COMFORT ME.

 WHY IS IT THAT EVERY TIME I ASK SOMEONE IF THEY CAN SPARE PART OF THEIR TIME FOR ME, THEY CAN'T BUT WHEN IT COMES TO THEIR OTHER FRIENDS, THEY HAVE ALL THE TIME IN THE WORLD. 

WHY IS IT THAT I'M ALWAYS IGNORED LIKE THIS SINCE YOUNG. 

WHY IS IT WHEN IT COMES TO THEM, I'M WILLING TO SACRIFICE MY TIME. 

WHY IS IT THAT WHEN THE TIME I'M UPSET, ALL MY FRIENDS ARE BUSY. 

WHY IS IT ME WHO'S ALWAYS THE ONE IN THE BACK. 

WHY IS IT ALWAYS ME WHO'S ALWAYS THE LEAST IMPORTANT. 

WHY IS IT ME WHO NO ONE CARES WHEN I'M LEFT BEHIND.

WHY AM I SO NICE TO PEOPLE.

WHY AM I SO WEAK.
WHY DO I LET PEOPLE STEP ON ME.

AM I EVEN NEEDED? TELL ME IF I'M NOT.

GOD KNOWS HOW MUCH I'VE KEPT THIS BOTTLED UP INSIDE ME. 

IF THE SHOE FITS, FEEL FREE TO WEAR IT. I'M TOO UPSET TO EVEN CARE.

...I'm worthless.